Bad trip

Time: 9:53pm
Day: Sunday
Mood: not-so-smitten

Today is one the most horrible day of my life! I feel sad and very lonely. Since it is Sunday, I am at home with my entire family. Everyone seems to be loath about my problems, they're very insensitive, I feel neglected & in a state of oblivion.

I believe I am not in my state-of-being. Everything is miserable, I feel really upset! My life is not on the right track; I slept the entire day, plans are canceled,  badminton with my sis is postponed, and the heavy freaking rain! I want my friends, please bring them to me!!!

But while browsing the internet, I found sites about Soulfood. I can't believe it, I feel lighter now. I thought reading about it is boring but sooner I felt hooked and very interested. I learned several lessons and I want to apply it with my everyday life. Besides, I hate the feeling of being sad and hopeless it kills me slowly. I think I need to be more optimistic like not thinking of my problem as a problem but rather a challenge that I must face and win it!

That's it for tonight because I'm watching a freaking good movie: Halloween III :))

Crossing my Fingers

I hate being patient! Ever since I applied for my Visa in New Zealand I was very excited. I applied last August and until now I'm still here in my country.

My visa officer Theodore Ashton first make pakiramdam on me during the second week of October. What a relief I felt during that time, at last my visa is finally processing. My consultant named Carol helped me (well its her job anyway) with arranging my papers and everything.

She makes paasa on me since she oriented me with all the shunanigans in New Z. I researched about them (a lot); I Google the Immigrant Adviser, I talk to parents whom children went to abroad already, I tried to contact the newly pasang-awa in New Z and everything! She said that the processing will just took 2 damn weeks since I am hell-of-applying for student visa (and then umasa din ako na parang tanga). Two weeks passed, then three weeks! a month! until the second week of October my hair is already gray wala pa rin. I was like a fool waiting for nothing.

By the time Theodore called I was at the mall, in a photo exhibit. The place was crowded and very noisy hence my visa officer and I can't understand each other very well. I need to speak in English, my God I was nosebleeding! (with all the British accent and everything!). He asked me simple questions pero I just can't answer him well because of my escalating anxiety. But it all came out well.

The next morning I went to Carol for updates and do what Theodore ask me in his email. That was a very stressful day! Then Carol make "predictions" again, she told me my visa might be accomplished in the following week. My earthly body was alive again at that time (and nagpapaloko at the same time).

Until now(here we go again) I feel tigang again. I think I need to have sex just to unwind. LOL. But my fingers are still crossed, I am not losing hope. I believe this is God's will, he has a purpose. Maybe I am not ready yet so I have to prepare. But before I think about leaving, maybe dapat okay ang lahat sa paligid ko. I don't want to leave with a heavy heart you know! (choz!)

Corpus de Vocabulario

     Since I'll be taking my IELTS exam in a couple of weeks I swear that I am going to be committed with my review! So from this day forward I'll memorize at least 30 vocabulary words and practice my writing for at least half an hour a day. Here are few sample of words I learned from my vocabulary quiz from this site.

Idiosyncrasy - a peculiar habit of an individual or a group

Pedantic - someone with excessive concern on precision and formal rules

Beleaguer - to harass

Parsimony - extreme care or reluctance in spending, frugal, niggardliness, extreme stinginess.

Ombudsman - an impartial person who watches for administrative abuses inside organizations.

Oblivion - state of being disregarded and forgotten.

Resilient - recovering readily from adversity, depression, or the like

Furtive - marked by quiet and caution and secrecy; taking pains to avoid being observed.

Bipartisan -  supported by both sides.

Algorithm - a precise rule (or set of rules) specifying how to solve some problem.

Tacit - If something is implied by actions or statements.

Conundrum - a difficult problem

Perplexity - puzzled, complicated, trouble or confusion resulting from complexity.

Malcontent - person dissatisfied with existing state of affairs; discontented person; ADJ: discontented

Confound - confuse; puzzle

Qualm - sudden feeling of sickness


Flabbergasted - as if struck dumb with astonishment and surprise.

Intuition -   instinctive knowing (without the use of rational processes)
 

     By blogging my newly (or rather remembered) vocabulary words maybe I can memorize them better than just writing it in my notebook. Anyways, I found a new site for people with writing/grammar problems (like me!) and it is absolutely free! just click here.

Penafrancia Festival

     Ever heard of the Penafrancia Festival in Bicol? I would like to share some photos of the fest taken by the Tercentenary Photographers in Nueva Caceres (Naga City)

Traslacion: One of the Main highlights of the Festival where "Ina" is carried through a procession from the Penafrancia Church to the Naga City Cathedral.

Voyadores: Countless men from different walks of life who are devoted to Ina.

The Porta Mariae: One of the newest Landmark in Naga City

Tercentenary Mass: After the Traslacion Procession, people gather for the mass conducted by the Archbishop

The Patroness of Bicol: Our Lady of Penafrancia

Aerial/Panoramic View: Naga City Metropolitan Cathedral and Porta Mariae

Fluvial Procession: After a week of joyful celebration. From the Naga Cathedral, Ina is then brought to the Naga City Basilica.

IELTS

      Since I am reviewing for my IELTS exam, I'm trying to pursue just to get a high band score. Since we are in the Internet Generation why don't we use our available source such as the internet. I found  a couple of websites that may be helpful not only for me but to other IELTS hopeful as well.

     http://www.examenglish.com/index.php - very cool way for reviewing IELTS indeed.

     http://www.ielts-exam.net/index.php - honestly, there are few errors on some of their tests but their strategies  are great!

     Perhaps, If you want to strive more on your Listening and Vocabulary Skills try downloading podcasts and audio-books with these cool sites!

     http://www.bbc.co.uk/worldservice/learningenglish/

     http://bbcactiveenglish.com/

     http://learnenglish.britishcouncil.org/en

Food Nutrients Can Influence Behavior

     Different types of food stimulate different regions of the brain so significantly they influence how we behave, a U.S. professor has claimed.

     Dr. Gary Wenk, from the Ohio State University and Medical Center, is a specialist in how drugs affect the brain. He claimed Sunday that amino acids and other natural compounds in food steer our mood swings, opening a flood of chemicals like dopamine and serotonin that promote well-being.

     "The distinction of what is a drug and what is food is blurring completely. Natural things are also drugs," said Wenk, author of the new book "Your Brain on Food."

     "Certain diets influence certain behaviors," he added. "If you want to understand how your brain works, we have to look at everything you consume."

     Wenk, a specialist in Alzheimer's disease, started investigating the medicinal impact of food while studying how natural plants could impact memory. People from the Indian subcontinent, he found, are much less likely to develop Alzheimer's thanks to eating large amounts of curry, which contains an antioxidant that keeps brain cells from aging.

     A lack of certain amino acids are believed to cause depression. Scholars now blame the Aztecs' penchant for sacrifice and cannibalism on a maize-based diet that lacked tryptophan, which is vital for creating feel-good serotonin. Even today, countries that consume less tryptophan have higher suicide rates, according to a 2007 study.

     Potatoes calm people down by releasing glucose into the blood, as does milk, especially in babies, Wenk said. He also claimed sugar was vital to feed the brain, helping focus attention and learn new things.

New CPR Guidelines

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UaxATn7ODcc

  

 

Starting with the C of chest compressions will help oxygen-rich blood circulate throughout the body sooner, which is critical for people who have had a heart attack. With this shift, rescuers and responding emergency personnel should now follow a C-A-B process—begin with chest compression, then move on to address the airway and breaths. -AHA

    The American Heart Association has issued new guidelines when it comes to administering CPR.

     Rescuers are now being urged to start with hard, fast chest compressions before giving mouth-to-mouth. The change ditches the old "ABC" approach - "A" for airway, "B" for breathing, "C" for compressions. That called for rescuers to give two breaths first, then alternate with 30 presses.

     Under the revised guidelines, rescuers using traditional cardiopulmonary resuscitation should start chest compressions immediately: 30 chest presses, then two breaths. The change applies to adults and children, but not newborns.

      The revamped guidelines also say rescuers should be pushing deeper, at least 2 inches in adults. Rescuers should pump the chest of the victim at a rate of at least 100 compressions a minute. Some say a good guide is the beat of the old disco song "Stayin' Alive."





http://www.wtvq.com/news/5395-new-cpr-guidelines

Inspired!

"Our greatest weakness lies in giving up. The most certain way to succeed is always to try just one more time" -Thomas Edison

     When I read this quotation there are lots of things came into my mind. From my intuition I suddenly felt It went into my soul! I feel flabbergasted! I feel like on a fire burning again to pursue my dreams.

     I remember when I was just a child reading books about history. It is when I found out about Thomas Alva Edison. He is an inventor. He created one of the most breakthrough technology of our history. He invented the Incandescent Light Bulb. Ever since, he is my inspiration. I wanted to be like him.

     However, as a Young Professional I wanted to succeed with my calling. I've been to lots of challenges when I was a student. Now that I am In a starting field of my profession, I wanted to reach the top like the people whom I admired the most. Being a Nurse I know Its not  easy to hit the top, BUT because of this inspirational remarks from a Great person I feel excited! I am ready to face mistakes, fears, and hindrances that will come along my way to the top!

     At this moment, I feel the passion In me. I don't aspire to be just a Nurse. I wanted to be a GLOBALLY COMPETETIVE NURSE!

Decision Monday

    This Monday I finally decided that I would be taking my second IELTS exam this 4th of November. In my previous exam I succeeded to reach my goal score (which is a prerequisite for my student visa) with a band score of 6.5. This morning, I ran to my previous Review Center for Inquiries about the exam. Well, they failed me! They said that if I would be taking the exam again (they recommend that I should take on 30th of October) I must take ALL the 4 tests again! I'm a little bit of shock because as far as I know (I'm not quite sure), I can take any part of the exam according to my choice. 

     When I took the exam last July, I did my best during the speaking and writing test and the rest? well.. I intentionally put the wrong answers down! hahaha.. lol. But to be honest? I wasn't Happy with my scores. My highest is 7.0 in my speaking test and the rest is 6.5. But still, I'm happy because I'm qualified for my Student Visa. And now, before leaving this country Instead of taking the second part of my IELTS exam overseas, I'd rather took It here because It is less expensive and I can focus more. So that is why I just wanted to take the other parts of the exam (Speaking test is just so intimidating!).

      However, after my appointment in the Review Center. I went to the other Review center which is the Mindbooster to ask for help. Indeed they are very generous! they are willing to help me file for my exam. They told me that If I'm confident enough.. I can take the Nov. 4 IELTS exam here in the city! Hence, I have the time to prepare myself! After the talk, I went to the mall then go home. Thank you Lord for a beautiful Monday!

About my Home

Up in the hill somewhere in Ligao City

     They said "Home is where your true heart is". Since someday I'm going to leave this country, I feel that I would love to travel my Province for the last few months of my stay here in the Country. Separation anxiety gives me a lot of jitters for the last few weeks! I don't know what I can do for my family when I'm out of the country. Since I'm a Nurse, I feel that I have lots of responsibilities especially with regards to the health care needs of my family. As my time goes to it's dramatic end the more I love the people around me, my country, my life! So help me God! xoxo

The hill is covered up with Pineapples and Dinorado Rice Plantation.

Directions please?

     I'm just a kid! (there I said it!) Believe me I have many success stories to tell about myself but at 22 I never really experienced something very heavy like Big Fights with friends, Crying out loud, Killing someone (If I could then please!). Maybe I'm a little bit generous (But I'm not. lol) I feel like little boy with no definite direction to go. Until now, I fell (sort of) dependent not only with my parents but to other people as well (Now let's talk about INDEPENDENCE). My Lord please set me Free!

     I want to discover many things! I want to travel the World, I want to make my own Money, I want to have a beautiful wife (with 2 kids), I want to make my own Delicacy, and I want to learn how to Drive! (YES people I don't know how to freaking drive!) BUT the BIG question is... WHEN? I feel LOST. I don't know where to start! Someday, I'll read this blog again and reminisce how misery I am.

     Knowing myself, I know I can reach my goals in life. I will not Die until I reach my ultimate dream! that is.. to be Self Actualized and ready to have an eternal rest.

It's Time

     Now here it is (at last), my very first blog! I was never a good writer but this time I will! (or I'll try). Even though I know that no one is interested to read my junks, but still.. I'll try my best! Being a depressed, lonely, and handsome man for the past few weeks triggers me to do this! Through blogging, I can express myself other than making myself busy by watching Drama series or Cartoons which makes me go nuts!

What is your whole  purpose of making a blog?
     "To bring out the best of me" I know I have a talent I just have to let it out.

What are you plans for this blog?
     I'm a newbie so I will study how to improve my blog site. I'll put some Music, Photos, Roller Coaster, and a Refrigerator! (Cool isn't it?!)

What is your blog all about?
     Well since I am a Nurse, maybe I'll put blogs about my profession, medical situations and interventions, etc. Other than that, since this blog is all about me.. I'll be sharing my Lost World to this Universe!